I cook lunch and dinner mostly every day. Husband prefers to eat at home but occasionally, he ask me out for a date. Just like last night, once he came back with a stress look on his face and the phone was non stop flooding with messages and calls, he told me to get ready after dinner (we had to eat at home first cause I’ve cooked dinner) and went out for a drink at my favourite bakery, The Loaf.

Having ice chocolate overlooking the beautiful bay, it was a jovial evening chit-chatting with husband about my trials and goals in teaching. Even though the conversation was pretty serious and deep, I know one of the reasons was to distract his mind from wandering into his never-ending work issues.

Back to the matter of teaching. It was quite hard for me to adapt to teaching at first, knowing I have no teaching background whatsoever. But as a year passed by, I began to fall for this job. One thing I’m sure most of the teachers might agree with me is that whenever you teach something, you actually learn something. That’s the fun part! Learning!!!

Many times, when students question me about something, I will try to look for the answers eagerly. There was once, when a student asked about Pluto (it was part of the solar system back then when I learned about it in primary years ago) cause it was not in the school text book anymore, both of us joyfully explored the internet to quest for more information about the small planet.

The more I teach, the more I feel that I need to learn as much as I can. It’s an endless process which I now feel immensely attached to it. And I think one of the good ways to share knowledge is too have a good circle of friends who share the same profession too. Anyone here is a teacher?


A year of changing

I don’t usually write about my all year round memories or the next year resolutions in my blog. But Alhamdulillah for being a homemaker, I initially have some few hours spare time today, thanks to the school holiday which allows me to have a break from my personal tutor classes.
There are so many things had happened for the past one year. From being single to being married, from a career woman to a homemaker, from hating teaching to begin to love teaching, from this much (—–) knowledge to this much (——–) knowledge. Haha… Yes, I LOVE the part when at least there’s some improvement on my beneficial knowledge.
2014 has seen me moving from a city to a bit rural place due to my new residence after marriage. It was a challenge at first but I totally love being away from the city and the ridiculous traffic. There’s nothing much to do here other than groceries shopping and sightseeing around the island *wink*. But my husband and I have the most valuable time here being with each other. Our ups and downs are merely shared with one another and Alhamdulillah for the humble place we have to be called home.
After getting married, I realized so many details that I need to take care of in being a Muslim woman and a wife. Things that I used to close eyes to or simply ignore are slowly adapting into my life. Whatever we do as a wife will definitely reflect the husband. The appearance, the communication towards opposite sex and the beneficial knowledge to be concurrently gained are important aspects for the changing.
Leaving 2014 in a few hours, I am looking forward for the new year of 2015. This is the year where I want to keep changing for the better, InshaAllah. There are list of changes that I want to make but of course I won’t share with the public, hehe. But it’s going to be a year where I want to focus more on my deen and gaining beneficial knowledge. I miss being in Islamic classes and seminars! Even though I am hundreds kilometers away from main cities of Malaysia, it will not stop me from accessing to the ilm. May Allah make it easy for me and you.
What about you? Anything you want to change or improve?

Call to Him, He will answer

Hira' Cave from the peak

I was slowly climbing up the Jabal Nour behind my brother. I looked up and saw my families have quickly gone up without any trouble. But somehow, both of us were left a long way off that we could hardly see the rest of the team.

The sun was extremely hot that day and I felt that I was too much dehydrated till it made me so weak. It was half the journey up to Hira’ Cave, perhaps at nearly 300 steps away from the cave, I suddenly stopped at the man – made bench allocated for the hikers as pit stop. I took a long breath and decided to advise my brother to continue his hiking without me. I just gave up. He went up and left me to take a break.

Yes, I JUST GAVE UP. I wanted to cry feeling so helpless that I couldn’t continue the journey to see the historic cave. I was so tired and felt terribly sorry that I’ve finished the whole bottle of mineral water along the way. Nothing left for me and thirst began to weaken my body. It was then when I made du’a to Allah to make me strong and be able to carry on as I had come a very long way.

Few minutes later, a mid-age lady hiked up and made a stop at the bench next to me. After she greeted me with salaam, we had a short conversation and said this:

“Let’s go up the hill together, we can slowly do it inshaAllah.”

I just felt so relieved at that moment because I have someone with me who approximately will be hiking at my pace. We went up together whilst talking endlessly till she asked what my favourite surah is.

“Ohh, I have a few but the one that I do memorized is Al-Inshiroh,” the surah just popped up in my mind. Albeit it is a simple, short surah, I have a thing towards this particular surah due to its beautiful meaning. My favourite parts are:

For indeed, with hardship will be ease. [Surah Al-Inshirah ayah 5]

Indeed, with hardship will be ease. [Surah Al- Inshirah ayah 6]

We recited the surah together throughout our journey and rested a few times at some pit stops. It was a wondrous expedition having someone to tag along in reaching the Hira’ Cave. Being honest, it wasn’t the peak that made me feel on top of the world but the climb was definitely a worth experience.

The incident that happened during my hike up to the Hira’ Cave was unforgettable. I’ve always known about asking Allah for help and guidance whenever we are in casualties but yet we sometimes don’t realize or aware of the help sent to us in many forms and means are actually none other than from Allah. Subhanallah… As for me, Allah has sent the lady to motivate and support me when I was down and started to give up. Allah Al – Muttakabir. Yes, everything happens with Allah’s permission and I have no doubt with Allah’s qada’ and qadar.

At times, we tend to cry for Allah’s help to mitigate our sorrows and pains or even pull us out from our hardships. Some people might get the help right away and some a little bit later. Some will suffer for years till their hardships begin to cause them to question Allah’s love towards them. But do ponder upon the story of Prophet Ayyub a.s who was tested with a disease for many years but never complain. The help from Allah came when he finally seek refuge to Him:

And [mention] Ayyub, when he called to his Lord, “Indeed, adversity has touched me, and you are the Most Merciful of the merciful.” – [Surah Al-Anbiya’ ayah 83.]

So We responded to him and remove what afflicted him of adversity. And We gave him [back] his family and the like thereof with them as mercy from Us and a reminder for the worshippers [of Allah ]. –[Surah Al-Anbiya’ ayah 84.]

The patience showed by Prophet Ayyub a.s was remarkable. It is an example for us to be patient with Allah’s trials upon us and never lose hope with our prayers to Allah.

Trials and hardships are meant to serve us in this life. They are the key indicator to measure our imaan in dunya before we enter the ultimate eternal life in the akhirah. From small tests to the big ones, all of these trials are accountable to be judged by Allah later.

Just bear in mind, when trials and hardships occur, endure them with patience then pray to Allah to ease them for us. Perhaps those trials are our tickets to Jannah.


The wedding

I thought about getting married a couple of years ago. Searching for the right candidate has never been easy. But I’ve never thought things will go differently in 2013.

When I finally met him.


Him in this post is none other than my husband. Yes, I’m married, alhamdulillah. It happened so fast but it’s the way I want it to be.


We were introduced by a married couple, then exchanged photo and biodata (these happened through the couple) and finally after istikharah, decided to perform taaruf ( the meeting).


During the 2 hours taaruf session, we were accompanied by a married couple and his married friend.We sat at the same table with the fellow chaperones, chit-chatting and trying to know each other. Alhamdulillah, the next day, we’ve decided to get married. Whoaaaa cepatnya!


Ramai yang tak sangka I will ended up getting married to somebody I don’t know (maksud kat sini mcm tak bercouple dulu). Yes, that’s exactly what I’ve prayed to Allah. I prayed that Allah not to put myself in relationship before marriage and make everything smooth and easy for me.


Alhamdulillah after both families agreed to the marriage idea, the solemnisation took place on 21 February 2014 in Penang. Sangat happy!!! 🙂


Getting married doesn’t mean you need to get to know the other person for years then only you want to marry him. Choose a partner based on his/her religion first, Allah always comes first, then the rest are meant for you to accept and adapt. InshaAllah He will take care of the marriage. Love comes naturally.


Thank you to everyone for your prayers and wishes. We are truly happy to finally become husband and wife.


Missing ‘you’ already



I sacrificed my weekend when I was supposed to go back to hometown and visit family, just for Twins of Faith. Syukran Ya Allah, it was one of the good sacrifices I made when the rewards were astonishingly blissful.

There’s one saying goes like this, “When you want to do good, good people will come near you and vice versa.” I intended to join this event for such a long time. Since then, I prayed to God that I will be surrounded by good people and I really wanna be their friends. Like what Wardina Safiyyah said, “Ini perjumpaan orang baik-baik.” (This is an event for good people). So you can meet all the baik – baik people there. *Wink*

Alhamdulillah, Allah has made it easier for me to attend the event. I was introduced to a lovely girl named Alia by my best friend, Aliaa. Okay, both of them are Alia and Aliaa. Don’t get confuse people! Just focus on the spelling okay. Alia is a friend of Aliaa who studied in Melbourne before this. She came back for good and both of us riang ria bersama-sama carpooling to Twins of Faith. Another friend of mine, Janna, promised to meet me at PICC straight.

Oh yeah, if you’re still wondering, what the event is all about, please check here.
I couldn’t really describe the feeling when I was there. The talks, the workshops, the people, priceless man…priceless! There were few times I had teary-eyed by listening to all the beautiful talks from those international and local speakers. MashaAllah. (I got teary-eye now too just by writing this.)

When I saw families with little kids came to the event, it made wondered, I must bring my (future) husband and (future) kids too. InshaAllah. It’s good to expose the young ones to this kinda family event.

Herm, but I’ve missed the Marriage Facilitation Ceremony although I managed to join the Marriage Corner workshop. It was full (for ladies)! Sah, ramai ladies still single…hahaha. But men can still sign up at the day of the event. Lucky you, men! Herm, I thought I’m gonna meet ‘him’ there, takpelah inshaAllah, everything is in God’s will. I believe in that.

Anyways, there were so much knowledge I want to share with you but I might do it in another posts. That’s all for now folks. Barakallahu fikum.


My mind is flooded with memories of Twins of Faith Malaysia which was held last weekend. I don’t know how long this sickness will last, but I love it and have no intention to find the cure. I’m so blessed. Blessed with what Allah has given to me.



Kids Zone

Mother’s room


inside the main hall. Muslim Bilal was on stage! i like!!